just a thought

by anthony

I know what I need to do to make me happy, but I don’t do it.

The tough decisions.

The decisions where I am looking at the choices I’ve made until this point and decide to change course.

I always know when I don’t belong where I am in my life.

It feels like I am walking sideways, slanted but I have to keep going or else it’ll all start spinning.

I suppose I am a creature of freedom consumed by a life of habit.

But, as I said, I know exactly what needs to happen, and I remain paralyzed and self-destructive.

I make everything complicated to justify my desire to escape the honesty we need to face in life…

What was does not need to be now.