Day 12…the lady
Why does being a girl take so much upkeep?
It doesn’t, I answer. You do that all on your own. I, however, am deeply grateful for the work you put in.
To quote Hank Moody, “But I guess the larger question is why is the city of angels so hell bent on destroying it’s female population?”
I feel, in this city, there is such a misguided feeling of self-worth among the female population. The living dead here are the lost clowns of their childhood dreams, hiding behind counterfeit smiles, runny lipstick and drowned in chemical fragrance.
Women here are so interested in being noticed that they don’t realize they have created themselves as an all too common stereotype.
It is no secret that this city runs on looks and money. As a woman, if you have either, life is good, easy. If you have both, then the power you hold is immeasurable. And in my humble opinion, I feel that there is an abundance of beauty in all kinds of women, regardless of looks.
Women have the gift of originality within the feminism they possess. Women are the stars in the sky, the fires that burn through the air and warm all of life. Until I moved to Los Angeles, the respect and admiration I held for women were as immense as my necessity to breathe. They were all strong, selfless, walking pieces of visual art.
Then, I settled here in the supposed City of Angels and quite quickly, my desire has turned to contempt. As I said, looks and money.
In more Bohemian cultures and cities, women hold themselves to such high standards of self-respect that they often retreat into their creation rather than attempt to parade any desire for superficiality. Here, however, those flaunted desires are often the only assets the woman believe is necessary.
“I know what I’m doing.” Or, “This is not me.” “I just have to play the game.” These mantras get repeated so much that women here actually believe they are truths, or, worse, force themselves to accept a truth within it.
So, during the day, the tango gets danced, a wealthy arm is found to cling to, the freshly bleached teeth display earnest hope among all the A-list pitied exploitation and the day often ends either alone, confused or sad, void of all the pride sacrificed for unknown reasons. “I am doing it for what I love.” But at what point in life do the means cease to justify the end?
Women of this city, stop holding yourself up to the standards of financial worth that you are so willing to bathe in. Do not be afraid to be alone. Stop trying to destroy yourself for the opinions of the insecure. And, please, stop being so surprised when you are taken advantage of. You are much more intelligent than that.
And as for this supposed angelic city, have reverence for these perfect feminine creations. They are the nurturers and the lovers. They are the wombs, the bearers of new life, the beauty and light in what often is a dark and cold city. They are, in fact, the very angels of your namesake, walking among us, healing us, giving us all reasons to live day after day.
I believe it is time to accept and respect the Lady once again.
So, today I am cheating, because this seems too good to be true. I found this in a cookbook and it got me very excited. I will confess, though, and say I haven’t actually made these yet, but I will…I promise!
3 cups granulated sugar
3/4 cup light corn syrup
3/4 cup water
1/8 teaspoon salt
3 egg whites
1/3 cup semisweet chocolate chips
2 bags milk chocolate chips (12−ounce bags)
In a large saucepan over medium heat, combine the sugar, corn syrup, water, and salt. Heat, stirring to a boil, then continue to cook using a candy thermometer to monitor the temperature. Beat the egg whites until they are stiff and form peaks. Don’t use a plastic bowl for this. When the sugar solution comes to 270 degrees F, or the soft−crack stage, remove from the heat and pour the mixture in thin streams into the egg whites, blending completely with a mixer set on low speed.
Continue to mix until the candy begins to harden to the consistency of dough. This may take as long as 20 minutes. At this point add the semisweet chocolate chips. Remember that the candy must already be at the consistency of dough when you add the chocolate; the nougat will thicken no more after the chocolate is added.
When the chocolate is thoroughly blended and the nougat has thickened, press it into a greased 9×9−inch pan. Refrigerate until firm, about 30 minutes. With a sharp knife, cut the candy in half down the middle of the pan. Then cut across into 7 segments to create a total of 14 bars. Melt the milk chocolate chips in the microwave for 2 minutes on half power, stirring halfway through the heating time. Melt completely, but be careful not to overheat. Resting a bar on a fork dip each bar into the chocolate to coat completely and place on wax paper. Cool until firm at room temperature, 1 to 2 hours.
Makes 14 candy bars.